Miss Sunshine Says

Since it's like a trend that everyone starts writing about what they have done throughout this year and what their resolution of the coming year is, I also hand itchy wanna type something lah~ Haha!!

上个学期的此刻，我。。。 (忘了吗?)

一路走来，应该没有人比我自己更懂得自己所做的一切。

九把刀 in Wikipedia。 Diao!!

I know it is bad to compare friends; who is better and who is worse. But I can't help but to see a big contrast between two of my best friends. One seems to truly understand my situation even though I didn't explain much. One doesn't seem to get what I mean even though I have spoken much. Yes. "Much" as in.... too much? Until some harsh words came out.

Recently, many things happened in my family. One comes after another. Yeh, very problematic. I don’t even dare to think much about those problems because each time I think of them, I feel so restless and hopeless.

Next week is my birthday. But, I doubt I can be really happy. My mom doesn’t even want to celebrate my birthday with me because she is terribly in bad mood. And I was told that I can’t even buy new clothes for Chinese New Year. I knew it wasn’t my fault for making in such bad mood. But should I blame the one who made her angry? What’s the point of blaming? That person doesn’t even feel guilty or sorry for what she had done. Blaming her is practically wasting my precious time and causing myself to feel angrier and pissed off. Who can I complain to? Boyfriend, friends, or my family???? =.=” I don’t want to complain. I am really tired of all these. When can all these end? This cold war seems to last for a very long time. All I could do is continue smiling with my toughest will.

Currently saving hard for my Wacom. Hopefully I can get one in the next 2 months time. Wish me good luck~

^^

不懂从何时开始，我的心就变得很野。因为心野，所以梦大。

Yes.

随着科技的发达，很多人都开始脱离手工艺。因为，大家都比较喜欢可以CTRL+Z的

有很多人说，我很厉害画画!

Oh c'mon。我今天想说的是。。。

我不会画画。

假假?? 我是说真的。

那些学院的作业，我只不过是把我看到的给画下来。当我没有东西给我看，我根本画不出什么东西来。=_=" 败类!!

因为不会画画，所以，我只敢说我的擅长是painting，而不是drawing。比起记住某些东西的形状，我反而比较能记住那些东西的颜色。 所以说，假设我变成色盲，我就是一无所有了~ My gawd~ [O.O]!!!

其实，我也很想画。画一些有故事的画。可我到现在拿起铅笔，仍然画不出什么东西来! >< 可悲! 真可悲!! 明天很想再试一试。看我能否画出什么东西出来~ T_______T

因为假期，所以无聊。因为无聊，所以有很多废话想说。

平时上课的时候，每天都忙东忙西。搞得自己根本没有力气/时间去想些比较离开功课的课题。所以，短短三个星期的休假就是让我清静思考的最佳时刻了! 没错! 我就是要又清又静! 没有必要去high翻天。没有必要去刺激什么的。总之，我就是要简简单单平平淡淡得过我的假期!!!

上课期间，每天都得品尝人生的酸甜苦辣。酸是因为委屈。甜是因为朋友以及爱人。苦是因为挫折。辣是因为功课(又刺激/爽，又痛苦!) 嘿嘿。。我很喜欢这个分析! >< 现在假期。。跟以往一样，假期的时候，我就是很爱阅读，很爱打字。画画却变成我想脱离的事件。== 说到阅读，其实本人没有真正把一本华文书看完。因为我不喜欢太长的故事。我每天上网就是在阅读人家的部落格。还有，我超爱看星洲日报的副刊。短短的文章，含意却丰富~ Yes baby! This is what I want。一本书，。。。。。我还是无法把它给完成。还有，我每天都在九把刀的部落徘徊却从来没有阅读过他人的书! 我哪敢大声喊"我爱九把刀"!! 可是，单单阅读他的部落，我就觉得他超神的~因为，我很少会死追某某人的部落。而且还是每天开电脑就是看他有没有update~ 哇靠! 最后，我还是想问自己。。。。 我几时才能把一本华文书给看完?!?!?! =.="

有时候，真的没有必要作贱自己。

It's sickening.

“When you are in the valley, keep your goal firmly in view and you will get the renewed energy to continue the climb.”

Dennis Waitley

Finally, Year 1 Sem 2 has come to an end. Let me warn you guys first. This post is gonna be really long....

So.. Let's start from the very beginning. My semester 2 started in a horrible way which I don't wanna mention about it again. After the bad incident, I had changed. My mindset totally changed. First of all, I have to thank Liang a lot. I am quite sure I didn't force myself to change for this time. The change happened so naturally. As I mixed with him so often, my mind was influenced by his simple mindset. He is so simple and yet so intelligent! He never failed to impress me no matter in the matter of friendship or work. When I was down, he always seemed to be the one realizing my pain and my sadness. He could see through me. And I could see through him as well. I think he is really one of the best God's gift ever in my life. Even on the last day of this semester, he is the only one who gave me a farewell gift. So touched! ~~ I hope things will not change even though we enter different majors in the coming semester..

突然很想念他。。

Yer。。

原来我也会这样。。

==

睡觉啦!!

==

I feel so SUAY!!!

WTH!!!

My lappie's wireless system is not functioning!!! I can't connect to any wireless network right now with my lappie. OMG!!! Holiday is just about to start. And there goes my lappie, merajuk kat sini.. I also merajuk edi la.. T___T

Since Monday, the History of Art and Design presentation,..... I feel so EMO~~~ I was terribly sick on that day. High fever. The heat almost burned my brain. Thanks to God that I didn't go mentally retarded after that fever. The presentation... was a weak one. That's the comment I can give to myself. It was really not the kind of thing that I am supposed to do. I used to be analytical, critical and spontaneous. I was not myself at all on that day!!

Tuesday was the submission of my packaging design. I have actually done everything on the night before. But, I woke up late on that day. When I was on the way to the KTM station, I accidentally stepped on my packaging design which made my packaging design kemek! Oh no~~ == I was thinking whether I should print a new one and fold it again since the printing+material cost AINT cheap. Can't help to be a perfectionist. I still end up printing a new one out and fold the packaging again. As I have to redo the things all over again, it definitely took some time. The time of submission was 10-10.30. I submitted it on 10.30 and past a few seconds. My lecturer feared me by saying that 10% of my marks will be deducted as I was a few seconds late. WTH! ==.. I ignored him. But from what I heard from my friend, I wasn't in the list of the people who have their marks deducted. Phewh~~

Wednesday was the presentation of my English Language Communication Skills. My lecturer asked me to create a print ad instead of a storyboard the day before. And as expected, I will be the one doing. I was tired. I was sick. Yet, I STILL HAVE TO STAY UP LATE TO COMPLETE IT. I knew it. Last minute work definitely will sucks! Sucks to the max. And yeah.. Really sucks. The whole presentation sucks. Congrats to myself. I reached home at almost nine that day. When I was about to open my laptop to start completing the report for LCS and the research compilation for letterform design, I just realized I left my laptop's charger in Liang's house. And, my laptop's battery only left 1%. OMG!! When I saw my laptop's screen slowly faded black, I couldn't help but to burst into tears. Why!!! How can this happened to me? All my important files are inside. What should I do? In fact, I really couldn't do anything. No one can help me. I am standing alone. Fine. When I wanted to do my nude practice for figure studies, I also realized my sketch book was with Liang also. ==... FINE!!! FINE!! FINE!!! Who can I blame? Blame myself la!!!

Today was the submission of the LCS report and letterform design research compilation. I also had figure studies exam at 2.00pm. As I couldn't use my laptop the night before, I couldn't print my report using my own printer. I have no choice but to print in the printing shop. WTH! Printing 14 pages black and white and 4 coloured cost me RM14.70!! WHAT THE HELL!!!!! I just can't feeling restless and angry of myself. PEK CHEK!!! At 1.50pm, I walked to Block I to hand in my report. When I wanted to hand in my report, I just realized, the report WAS NOT WITH ME! How can that be? Have I submitted it together with my letterform design research compilation? NOOOO~~~ I RAN all the way to main block's student lounge to check if I have left it there. NOT THERE! I checked amongst the research compilations. NOT THERE! OMG OMG OMG~~~ Where was it?? Then, I called Soon Lim. For goodness sake, the report was with him. Goodness!! I rushed towards Block M. Thanks to Soon Lim who walked to Station One. At least, I don't have to run to Block M. I looked at the clock. OMG! 2 o clock edi. I ran to Block I, passed the report to my lecturer's student and ran to Block M. Carrying a 5kg bag, running on the street.... Imagine that. The feeling really sucks to the max! After I reached Block M, I have to climb to the highest floor of the block which is the 3rd floor. WITH THAT BAG! Wah lao!!!! I was late for class. When I settle myself down, my sweat dripped like it was raining. ==!!! Okay. Anyhow, the exam was okay. Not that bad actually.

*sigh*

Actually, I have more to say.

I have lotsa regrets. I am disappointed of myself. I know I can do better. I am still in my comfort zone. I am still NOT creative enough to be a good future designer. I am so WEAK! Comparing my standard with some other outstanding students who are in the same batch as mine, I feel so ashamed of my work. Theirs was really AWESOME. Mine was... ==!!

Aihz.. Will share more about my feelings in the coming post where I will conclude my semester 2 officially.

=(

I don't know how to start/end this.

But, I am just here to announce that...

I AM IN A RELATIONSHIP!!

chaoz~

I feel so odd.

A friend came to thank me for being such a great friend. He appreciated me a lot.

Really odd. It has been centuries since someone said that to me. Those words gave me a glimpse of joy.

It was only 2 months back when we got to know each other more. The feeling was just so good. He understands me so well. And I could see through him very well too. Awkward. But it is not love. It is some sort of family relationship. Feel so great each time he was there for me. Just like a saviour.

This semester is gonna end soon. No doubt, I am going to miss him. How nice if I could drag this semester even longer.

*sigh*

Yep. So this is my Photoshop+Illustrator final project. My lecturer said my font very OLD FASHIONED! ==.. But overall, I think the outcome was good. ^^ Jia you to myself!!

Urh...

Oversleeping is really bad.

VERY!

Something has definitely went wrong with my body system. I had been oversleeping EVERYDAY!! Wah mia! I feel like choking myself to dead each time I realized that I have overslept.

Fortunately, that doesn't affect me much as I always do my assignments few days earlier. Therefore, it was a SAFE oversleeping huh. =.=""

Final is just around the corner. Or I should say, it is already here. *sigh* Nothing exciting. Just don't get the "ohm" huh. I am just anticipating for the semester break. Wuhoo~~ I guess my classmates must have been thinking about it each time they are pek-cek-ing with their assignments. Wahaha~~

Here are some letterform and calligraphy assignments. We were to express serenity, chaotic and dynamic in typo way. So here are my execution of the three ideas. =)

Serene

Dynamic

Chaotic
I personally love this. =)

One of the things that I treasure most in my life is my water colour palette.

It is dirty.

It is messy.

It never takes its bath, not even once.

But,...

I just love the way it is.

I heart water colour painting.. ♥ ♥ ♥

夜深人静
我
静悄悄地
把冰箱打开~
嗯!
我就是要你~~

Mmm....可口可乐鸡肉~~酷毙了!! V[^-^]V

冰冷的你
实在是帅到~~~~~

>.<

最近，被人家误会得乱七八糟。

我也没有当场澄清什么的。

我只能说，你们猜错了啦~

他，只是好朋友。像家人般的好朋友。
我很喜欢跟他在一起的时刻。但是，又说不上是爱上了他。
聊天的时候不会尴尬，不会害羞。
就凭这一点，我就可以很肯定的说，我和他，并非是你们所想的。
难免会想到一些问题。为什么男女之间不能只是好朋友的关系呢?其实，我觉得ok呃。不懂为什么大家只要看到某个谁跟某个谁走得进一点就以为人家在拍拖。=_="

其实，真正让我脸红心跳的是另有其人。
见面是会害羞。难以遮掩脸红。
聊天时会kek kek地。因为，会紧张，会心跳加速。
上课时也会偶尔想到他。
吃饭时会在想他是否也在吃饭。
睡觉前会想想我们是否有未来~
这个才是我喜欢的"他"。 [^-^]

他和他，同一个时间出现在两个不同的范围里。除了感恩和感谢，我还能说什么呢?

This is an old topic. But I just feel like talking about it once again.

We are all grown-ups. There is no point waiting for people to spoon feed us anymore. No direct answers will be given for the questions. It's time for us to discover the answers ourselves. If you haven't done so, start now!!!

Once, there was a lecturer who told me this.

Never try to tell me "I don't know how" when you didn't even put effort in figuring out how.

亲爱的星期四，

真的很抱歉。本来已经计划好好要怎样征服你的。怎知，我还是让你失望了。

Well, finally I have the mood to blog again.

我说我呀~~ 只要一有什么东西没掌握好，自己就在那边紧张。。怕到不敢开始动手。现在又来酱。。很不健康捏~

Zzz。。。

不要再逃避了啦。。

快点开始吧。。。

T_______T

*piak*

你现在到底清楚了吗
那麽多年仔细躲避悲伤
到了今天仍然还在装傻
快放下
快放下

游乐，苏打绿

Sicky me.

Guess I am not experiencing normal tiredness.

I kept feeling dizzy, as though my brain is lacked of oxygen these days. I even almost fell off the chair last Saturday.

I had been sleeping from 9pm to 7am two nights back.

After having 10 hours of sleep, I still look like ghost. My college mates thought that I never slept at all. == After I went home, I slept again from 2.30 to 6pm. I started to feel tired at 12am. I finally slept at 2am till 10am, which made it 8 hours of sleep. At 12pm, I already feel tired. Started feeling dizzy. I was told that I am lacked of blood. They called it 贫血 in chinese. T__T

I really wanna recover asap. I have many things that I want to do, but I have no strength to do so. Dizzy.. I wanna nap again..

Sometimes, I find myself putting too much of effort in helping people. No matter how tired I am, as long as that person is a friend that I appreciate, I will still put my best effort in helping him/her to solve the problem. Yeah. So after the helping is done, as usual, people will thank me. "Oh, thank you so much for the help!! You are so kind" And there goes the blah and blah and blah. But, when it was my turn asking for help, ..... things are different. Well, I am not saying that I help people for the sake of getting something in return. But, I thought friends are supposed to help each other you know. I only need your little time to help me. Compare to how long I took to help you in the past, what would that little time cost you? I seriously have no idea why. I really don't want to count you on that. But, thanks to the "good" weather, I just can't stop thinking in a pessimistic way. *sigh* Anyhow, gratefully there was still someone who was so kind to help me. The whole scenario created such a big contrast between you and that kind friend. I still have to say you truly disappoint me. Very much. I will still treat you like a friend of mine. But somehow, the feeling is really different. I have lost faith in you.

What else that made my day sucks..

My lovely bottle went "pok kai"(扑街) today. I was in the mini bus. Well, the mini bus never shut its door. The bus was moving unevenly that my bottle ran out of my hand, rolled to the entrance, and POK-KAI-ED. Okay. The moment I saw my beloved bottle, crashing on the tarred road, I just stunned there and acted as though I wasn't feeling hard at all. I went on chit chatting with my schoolmate in the bus. After I reached college, I just couldn't stop flashing back the whole incident; how it actually pok to the road. Omg~~ What an ironic dying way my bottle had.. T__T

And and and... not to forget about this stupid weather. I really love rainy days. But, not today! It was like centuries back that I last wore in a more feminine way to college. Finally, today I made an attempt to wear so. Just feeling right to wear like this today. BUT........HOW COULD IT RAIN??? Damn damn damn.... If it was just a drizzle, I am fine with that. But it rained like SHIT! I had enough to worry about. And I still had to worry of my shoes getting wet and so on so forth just because of this damn rain.

Besides all the shits that I had been facing today, yesterday was not any better than today. == I wasted one holy day on one figure as I am not in the mood at all. When it was the midnight, someone pissed me off like no one else could. Yeah, THANKS TO YOU, I feel so pissed! You also realized that you pissed me off right? Thank god you ain't that blur yet. I thought you were having so much of hahaha and lol until you never realized that the person you are talking to is not giving you any good response. Yayaya.. She loves you so much. So just go ahead with her. Don't come to me and bla bla bla anymore. You ain't making my day any better!!! It's none of my concern how you feel about her and how you wanna settle all these things. I don't wanna know all that. Unless you have made up your mind on what you wanna do, or else, don't mess up with my life anymore.

I guess I am done with vomiting my unhappy things! Chaos~

仍然脱离不了时好时坏~

But, it's okay I guess. 我，身为再普通不过的人(废话)一定会有失手的时候。

以前，一失手就会有种跌入地狱的感觉。想哭，沮丧!

现在，ok 啦。在学习的过程中不可能有百分百的成功。反正，try一下新的东西也ok。没try过又怎么会知道work不work。就算成果并没有达到最好的效果，至少，我自己知道，我已努力过。而且，也领悟到那一招到底work不work了了。所以，以后就不会在犯下同样的错咯! ^^

我没有在自我安慰啦。说真的啦。。来了THE ONE。获益匪浅! 心理变化也极大~ 回头一看，原来自己变了这么多。以前的我真的太肤浅了。现在，也不算好到那里去。哈哈~At least,我还蛮满意现在的progress啦。

时好时坏，也不见得是一件坏事吧。习惯了就不会那么害怕成功的天堂与失败的地狱~

Let's talk about Wei Ting's birthday celebration first. It was her birthday yesterday. And,.. DUH! Of course we will celebrate for this little kiddo! Haha!

Always the four of us. Why So Lame looked as though he was frozen? =.="

Xin and 23!!! Haha~~

Wahlao~ Hsiao Shen geh pose.. Lol~~

大家笑到见牙不见眼~~ ^-^

Oh no! Simon kena aluba!! LOL~~ *pain*

Ita daki masu!!

Ahh~~

Everyone! Cheers~~

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很可笑的是
我找不到理由去辩解这一切。

Yer.. I don't like this kind of feeling loh. (>-<)

Very unfair.

You are so selfish.

Gahhh~~~

个人喜好没有绝对

如果这样就算肤浅

那种脑袋才可悲

对对对对对

怎么说都对

你们很奇怪捏

一下说要悲 一下又说不够K

你只要耶耶 不要一直变变

不然就给我钱 我就装乖不吠

我觉得,

我

永远

是

个

罪人

。


只要我一发言，我就注定得罪人，伤害人。

可我还是个再普通不过的人。

普通得来，又有点聪明过头。我指的不是knowledge的聪明，而是思想的聪明。有很多东西，我都会在空档时间里一一分析。发生的一切，都很少会让它不了了之。大家都觉得成果比过程重要。可我无法这么想。过程中的小小细节，我都有放在眼里。我都很在意。所以，"失惊无神"出现的成果如果跟我在过程中看到的，体会到的大大不同，。。。。er。。很奇怪咯。><

无意要让任何人感到伤心失望。我只不过想说出我的感受，我的想法而已。 我真的无力一直站在他人的角度去体谅人家。请你们也站在我这儿，看看我该怎么想的吧~ 我是真的累了呃。

No doubt. My mind is very messed up, once again.

Too many stories. Too many to think. Too hard to respond.

I wasn't in the story. I was just the spectator, watching how things are going on. Well, very disappointing one. Really. The more I know, the more restless I feel. =.="

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我想，我没有资格说什么吧。 如果要我惊讶的反应，那只会显得我又狼狈，又白痴。我只能什么都不去想。所有的为什么，除非是你们说，否则我是不会问的。 你们快乐就好了。

It was a big day for me. Nah.. It's not my birthday. It's that I was to do a presentation on an ad for my Language Communication Skill.

Let's talk about the whole process of preparation for this presentation. First of all, we already fixed our customer as KTMB. Then, we moved on to doing surveys. REAL surveys. Then, we thought of the problems and solutions together. Somehow, we were stuck when it comes to thinking of how to create an ad that could create a great impact on our target audience. Well, gratefully, we managed to combine two different ideas which Liang and I thought of together. I have to really thank Miss Pinky for giving us so many great suggestions. Without her, my group might end up in the wrong path. Since we decided to use the storytelling way (where we gonna present our ad in a comic way), the drawing and painting are the ones that are so gonna eat up lotsa time. The painting are only done by today, 3 in the morning. I woke up with my eyes opening, but brain sleeping to receive the file from my team mate. I didn't have the strength to do the photoshop work. Therefore, I ended up sleeping. Thanks to myself. I rushed like mad in the morning to complete the unfinished work.
Liang had really made a good job drawing and painting it. It's rather draft but the concept is clearly presented. I love the slogan as well (coz I thought of it de la.. XD) So damn lan si! ><

♥It's hard to keep the happiness that I am feeling to myself. Don't mind me sharing to you guys here. I am not showing off okay. But, I am serious happy with the outcome and the marks that we get in return. If some of you notice my facebook status weeks back, I wrote there, "Damn pissed!! Hard work does not equivalent to successful outcome!! WHYYYY..." I really feel so restless about the hard work that I am consistent contributing. BUTTTT...... Today, I can sense the hope once again. Successful outcome really requires lotsa hard work! Though there were days that I got really stressed up, worried, and pissed, all these seems to be nothing big deal when the overall outcome turned out to be so wonderful. [^-^]V

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Okay. Let's get out of the topic. I don't really like this kind of feeling, when I start to really dislike someone. This is bad. It's really bad to have a bad perception on others. But, there is just this particular person that I used to really like, but I started to dislike little by little. I could sense that xx has no one in xx's eyes. All xx thought of is the benefit! I think it's a selfish act! Really selfish. It really unfair for the others as well. Maybe others can't see thru your eyes. But some of us have seen your selfish side. Siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas lorh. No need to mention out who you are. Yes, you are fast, you are efficient. But, have you even thought at the others' side. You take the good eggs, and left the rotten eggs for the others just for the sake of cooking a good dish. So, you are happy to see the others dealing in difficulties with the rotten eggs? I just feel that, everyone should know how to balance up everything. No point you take the best eggs(which you think they are the best) now. You are definitely not going to deal with good eggs in the future. You are so gonna work in an environment of both active and passive people. Why not learning how to deal with those passive ones(which you think they are) when you are in the college? Are you really that afraid of the harsh road? =.= I thought I am kiasu. But, now, I think you are kiasu-er than me. I lost. XD
(Sorry for using xx and eggs as the comparison. I couldn't think of anything else)

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Next I would like to talk about friendships. Really disappointing. Although I have nothing to do with it, but as an outsider, I just don't like it when I heard of it. Where is the tolerance? Where is the faith? Damn. Do you guys know what I care most? I don't really bother what outsiders criticize me. I might just take it as a critic, but I won't feel so damn hurt. But, when it comes to close friends, conducting an act to abandon me and criticize me, this sucks! Really sucks! Stop judging your best friend okay. Try to think, if you were him/her, what you will feel. Harsh words are crime okay!!

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BTW, today is my lame friend, Tzu Zing's birthday. Lalala~~ I know it's your birthday today ah.. But please don't eat too much k. You still got a bet with me! XD!!

Buddies!!

En.. K larh.. I think that's all for today. Wishing for a great day tomorrow. MEATBALLLLLLL, I AM COMING~~~~

It is rather rare for busy people like to me to realize that it's the last day of the month. Somehow, the number "31" just keep appearing in my mind. It is reminding me that it's another end of a month. *sigh* I can't exactly remember what I have done in this month. Everything seems to be too rapid and too blurred. Too many things happened in a short time. I just don't have the capability to capture all the happenings.

1st of October seems to be just yesterday. That was the day I recalled my dream. My dream- - - To be a successful graphic designer. *sigh* Spirit fading little by little as time pass by. Life in college is rather boring. Semester 2 is really really "boring-fying"! Ugh... Got assignments then do do do. What's the purpose of doing?? I don't even have the time to figure it out as I have spent the time on completing the assignment. Yea. Without even knowing what's the objective of doing it. =.=" The only subject that I find it meaningful is Language Communication Skill. I bet it's due to my interest towards Advertising course. I kinda interested in the subject. Other than this,... =.=.. Perhaps Drawing II is another subject that I really enjoy though I always have stiff shoulder due to long period of painting. Uhm.. I love to apply the colour for fun. XD.. Most of the colours that I applied are not logic ler. I prefer using the "luan-luan-lai" sense to paint the objects lor. Haha. The outcome is always the kind that I like also. I better appreciate every moment of painting in this sem. Doubt that I will have chances to paint that frequent in the future.


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来得太快的东西会让我措手不及。慢点儿吧。。 就如九把刀所说的，"慢慢来比较快"。。 ^^

我真的真的很想呐喊。

我想我绝对有权力这么做吧。

今晚整9.30pm才到KTM站搭火车。 火车9.50pm才到。寂寞的时刻难免会让我反思回今天所发生的点点滴滴。

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我用一整晚努力寻找灵感，看别人怎么画东西。。 用心的画。。画。。画。。。
人家却只用2小时的时间把我用5小时的东西给画出来。不止如此。人家还被老师大赞!!
相信这个世界就是有所谓"不公平"这件事。所以，我还是别耿耿于怀吧。。。

还有还有。。为什么我得为你们的不负责任给负起责任?我活着的原因是为你们服务的吗? 为什么要搞到我根本没有休息余地? 你们没说一定要我做。但是，你们的表情已经让我觉得就算推给你们做，你们也根本达不到应有的quality! 开会是开爽的吗? 很KNS咧!! 再惹我不爽的话，小心我当场翻桌!

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我很懦弱! 我根本经不起这些考验! Assignment一直达不到自己的要求! 没有成就感的心情。。。 沮丧!

How should I conclude my week huh~~

After all, there were many many unlucky incidents that took place.
=( Not a satisfying History of Art and Design project
=( Not satisfied with Design II's marks
=( Totally had my mind blank out when I saw my Figure II's marks
=(Not satisfied with my Letterform's mind tuning's marks.
=( Lost the sense of painting today. =.= Apa jadi ni??
=( Had 30-40 mins wait for the KTM for twice in this week.
=( Extremely unmotivated+lazy

But but but,.... in spite of those unhappy things, there were some happy ones to balance up the overall.
=) There was someone who helped me out in something that I am weak of.
=) When I was so down, there was someone who called me over and over again to make sure I did not commit suicide!! XD.. Thanks a lot. I really feel so touched. It had been quite some time I feel being so concerned by my friend. Thanks for being such a great friend.
=) Audrey's message that came out of my surprise duh! Her lovely message arrived when I was so damn stressed! I couldn't help but to smile at the sms. ^^ Love ya gal~~
=) Went a little bit crazy in MSN with Linda. ==..Sometimes, I really wish she can be less lame. Haha!!
=) Many projects were approved without much obstacles. Design's maximalism, computer graphic's final, letterform's final~~ Yay!!
=) Actually, it was a great day today. ^^ Can't explain why. Maybe it's because of you. Maybe it's because of all of you. Maybe it's because of I myself.
//////// I think I seriously have started to forget someone. I consider that as a good news. Yeah.. I believe that he is just a passer-by in my life. I am wishing for right one to arrive. Cheers~~ ///////

Lalala~~ I am still in love with myself. =(^o^)=

Ngyehhh~~~

Miss Sunshine~~

I can't stop smiling when I think of you~~

很久没有说过自己心情很低落了。

嗯。。已经有一段时期了。 那段日子，就算过得不好，也苦笑着对自己说，"我很开心! 我很幸福! 不要难过!"

今天才发现到，那些不是乐观的想法，而是假坚强。

明明很不开心，还在那儿笑个屁。。

天天看麦兜，笑笑笑。。。笑完过后，低落感仿佛死而复生似的重新淹没我。

其实，真不应该伤心。真不应该败给命运。真不应该为了那笨蛋事件而沮丧!!

可是，我也只不过是个普通人。我不是铁人。我并没有大家想像的倔强。没有大家所想像的万能。今晚，就让我伤心个痛快吧~~~~

T__T

This is the cover of my History of Art and Design's Project 1. The outcome was just an average one. Nothing eye-catchy. It's rather hard to deny the fact that I am quite disappointed. *Gahhh*

Feeling kinda unmotivated this week. It has nothing to do with laziness I guess. It's plainly lack of motivation and encouragement.

Weeks back:
Input-90%

This week:
Input-40%

Therefore, the outcome for this week is definitely not as satisfying as the the previous weeks.

Gahhhh~~~

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Kinda hard to isolate the damned feelings. Sometimes, I get very sensitive with words spoken by others. Maybe they don't even mean to hurt me or what. But, I just felt kinda upset about that. Especially when I am all alone, I can't stop the flashbacks in my mind. I will continuously think back of what they've said. Was it me that got too sensitive over this matter or were they the ones that seriously never consider about how I feel? I just feel that they don't even think what they will feel if they were in my shoes. Sarcasms~ I won't say I hate it. But I truly truly dislike it deep down to the core. < width="425" height="344">