Miss Sunshine Says

Since it's like a trend that everyone starts writing about what they have done throughout this year and what their resolution of the coming year is, I also hand itchy wanna type something lah~ Haha!!

上个学期的此刻，我。。。 (忘了吗?)

一路走来，应该没有人比我自己更懂得自己所做的一切。

九把刀 in Wikipedia。 Diao!!

I know it is bad to compare friends; who is better and who is worse. But I can't help but to see a big contrast between two of my best friends. One seems to truly understand my situation even though I didn't explain much. One doesn't seem to get what I mean even though I have spoken much. Yes. "Much" as in.... too much? Until some harsh words came out.

Recently, many things happened in my family. One comes after another. Yeh, very problematic. I don’t even dare to think much about those problems because each time I think of them, I feel so restless and hopeless.

Next week is my birthday. But, I doubt I can be really happy. My mom doesn’t even want to celebrate my birthday with me because she is terribly in bad mood. And I was told that I can’t even buy new clothes for Chinese New Year. I knew it wasn’t my fault for making in such bad mood. But should I blame the one who made her angry? What’s the point of blaming? That person doesn’t even feel guilty or sorry for what she had done. Blaming her is practically wasting my precious time and causing myself to feel angrier and pissed off. Who can I complain to? Boyfriend, friends, or my family???? =.=” I don’t want to complain. I am really tired of all these. When can all these end? This cold war seems to last for a very long time. All I could do is continue smiling with my toughest will.

Currently saving hard for my Wacom. Hopefully I can get one in the next 2 months time. Wish me good luck~

^^

不懂从何时开始，我的心就变得很野。因为心野，所以梦大。

Yes.

随着科技的发达，很多人都开始脱离手工艺。因为，大家都比较喜欢可以CTRL+Z的

有很多人说，我很厉害画画!

Oh c'mon。我今天想说的是。。。

我不会画画。

假假?? 我是说真的。

那些学院的作业，我只不过是把我看到的给画下来。当我没有东西给我看，我根本画不出什么东西来。=_=" 败类!!

因为不会画画，所以，我只敢说我的擅长是painting，而不是drawing。比起记住某些东西的形状，我反而比较能记住那些东西的颜色。 所以说，假设我变成色盲，我就是一无所有了~ My gawd~ [O.O]!!!

其实，我也很想画。画一些有故事的画。可我到现在拿起铅笔，仍然画不出什么东西来! >< 可悲! 真可悲!! 明天很想再试一试。看我能否画出什么东西出来~ T_______T

因为假期，所以无聊。因为无聊，所以有很多废话想说。

平时上课的时候，每天都忙东忙西。搞得自己根本没有力气/时间去想些比较离开功课的课题。所以，短短三个星期的休假就是让我清静思考的最佳时刻了! 没错! 我就是要又清又静! 没有必要去high翻天。没有必要去刺激什么的。总之，我就是要简简单单平平淡淡得过我的假期!!!

上课期间，每天都得品尝人生的酸甜苦辣。酸是因为委屈。甜是因为朋友以及爱人。苦是因为挫折。辣是因为功课(又刺激/爽，又痛苦!) 嘿嘿。。我很喜欢这个分析! >< 现在假期。。跟以往一样，假期的时候，我就是很爱阅读，很爱打字。画画却变成我想脱离的事件。== 说到阅读，其实本人没有真正把一本华文书看完。因为我不喜欢太长的故事。我每天上网就是在阅读人家的部落格。还有，我超爱看星洲日报的副刊。短短的文章，含意却丰富~ Yes baby! This is what I want。一本书，。。。。。我还是无法把它给完成。还有，我每天都在九把刀的部落徘徊却从来没有阅读过他人的书! 我哪敢大声喊"我爱九把刀"!! 可是，单单阅读他的部落，我就觉得他超神的~因为，我很少会死追某某人的部落。而且还是每天开电脑就是看他有没有update~ 哇靠! 最后，我还是想问自己。。。。 我几时才能把一本华文书给看完?!?!?! =.="

有时候，真的没有必要作贱自己。

It's sickening.

“When you are in the valley, keep your goal firmly in view and you will get the renewed energy to continue the climb.”

Dennis Waitley

Finally, Year 1 Sem 2 has come to an end. Let me warn you guys first. This post is gonna be really long....

So.. Let's start from the very beginning. My semester 2 started in a horrible way which I don't wanna mention about it again. After the bad incident, I had changed. My mindset totally changed. First of all, I have to thank Liang a lot. I am quite sure I didn't force myself to change for this time. The change happened so naturally. As I mixed with him so often, my mind was influenced by his simple mindset. He is so simple and yet so intelligent! He never failed to impress me no matter in the matter of friendship or work. When I was down, he always seemed to be the one realizing my pain and my sadness. He could see through me. And I could see through him as well. I think he is really one of the best God's gift ever in my life. Even on the last day of this semester, he is the only one who gave me a farewell gift. So touched! ~~ I hope things will not change even though we enter different majors in the coming semester..

突然很想念他。。

Yer。。

原来我也会这样。。

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睡觉啦!!

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I feel so SUAY!!!

WTH!!!

My lappie's wireless system is not functioning!!! I can't connect to any wireless network right now with my lappie. OMG!!! Holiday is just about to start. And there goes my lappie, merajuk kat sini.. I also merajuk edi la.. T___T

Since Monday, the History of Art and Design presentation,..... I feel so EMO~~~ I was terribly sick on that day. High fever. The heat almost burned my brain. Thanks to God that I didn't go mentally retarded after that fever. The presentation... was a weak one. That's the comment I can give to myself. It was really not the kind of thing that I am supposed to do. I used to be analytical, critical and spontaneous. I was not myself at all on that day!!

Tuesday was the submission of my packaging design. I have actually done everything on the night before. But, I woke up late on that day. When I was on the way to the KTM station, I accidentally stepped on my packaging design which made my packaging design kemek! Oh no~~ == I was thinking whether I should print a new one and fold it again since the printing+material cost AINT cheap. Can't help to be a perfectionist. I still end up printing a new one out and fold the packaging again. As I have to redo the things all over again, it definitely took some time. The time of submission was 10-10.30. I submitted it on 10.30 and past a few seconds. My lecturer feared me by saying that 10% of my marks will be deducted as I was a few seconds late. WTH! ==.. I ignored him. But from what I heard from my friend, I wasn't in the list of the people who have their marks deducted. Phewh~~

Wednesday was the presentation of my English Language Communication Skills. My lecturer asked me to create a print ad instead of a storyboard the day before. And as expected, I will be the one doing. I was tired. I was sick. Yet, I STILL HAVE TO STAY UP LATE TO COMPLETE IT. I knew it. Last minute work definitely will sucks! Sucks to the max. And yeah.. Really sucks. The whole presentation sucks. Congrats to myself. I reached home at almost nine that day. When I was about to open my laptop to start completing the report for LCS and the research compilation for letterform design, I just realized I left my laptop's charger in Liang's house. And, my laptop's battery only left 1%. OMG!! When I saw my laptop's screen slowly faded black, I couldn't help but to burst into tears. Why!!! How can this happened to me? All my important files are inside. What should I do? In fact, I really couldn't do anything. No one can help me. I am standing alone. Fine. When I wanted to do my nude practice for figure studies, I also realized my sketch book was with Liang also. ==... FINE!!! FINE!! FINE!!! Who can I blame? Blame myself la!!!

Today was the submission of the LCS report and letterform design research compilation. I also had figure studies exam at 2.00pm. As I couldn't use my laptop the night before, I couldn't print my report using my own printer. I have no choice but to print in the printing shop. WTH! Printing 14 pages black and white and 4 coloured cost me RM14.70!! WHAT THE HELL!!!!! I just can't feeling restless and angry of myself. PEK CHEK!!! At 1.50pm, I walked to Block I to hand in my report. When I wanted to hand in my report, I just realized, the report WAS NOT WITH ME! How can that be? Have I submitted it together with my letterform design research compilation? NOOOO~~~ I RAN all the way to main block's student lounge to check if I have left it there. NOT THERE! I checked amongst the research compilations. NOT THERE! OMG OMG OMG~~~ Where was it?? Then, I called Soon Lim. For goodness sake, the report was with him. Goodness!! I rushed towards Block M. Thanks to Soon Lim who walked to Station One. At least, I don't have to run to Block M. I looked at the clock. OMG! 2 o clock edi. I ran to Block I, passed the report to my lecturer's student and ran to Block M. Carrying a 5kg bag, running on the street.... Imagine that. The feeling really sucks to the max! After I reached Block M, I have to climb to the highest floor of the block which is the 3rd floor. WITH THAT BAG! Wah lao!!!! I was late for class. When I settle myself down, my sweat dripped like it was raining. ==!!! Okay. Anyhow, the exam was okay. Not that bad actually.

*sigh*

Actually, I have more to say.

I have lotsa regrets. I am disappointed of myself. I know I can do better. I am still in my comfort zone. I am still NOT creative enough to be a good future designer. I am so WEAK! Comparing my standard with some other outstanding students who are in the same batch as mine, I feel so ashamed of my work. Theirs was really AWESOME. Mine was... ==!!

Aihz.. Will share more about my feelings in the coming post where I will conclude my semester 2 officially.

=(

I don't know how to start/end this.

But, I am just here to announce that...

I AM IN A RELATIONSHIP!!

chaoz~

I feel so odd.

A friend came to thank me for being such a great friend. He appreciated me a lot.

Really odd. It has been centuries since someone said that to me. Those words gave me a glimpse of joy.

It was only 2 months back when we got to know each other more. The feeling was just so good. He understands me so well. And I could see through him very well too. Awkward. But it is not love. It is some sort of family relationship. Feel so great each time he was there for me. Just like a saviour.

This semester is gonna end soon. No doubt, I am going to miss him. How nice if I could drag this semester even longer.

*sigh*

Yep. So this is my Photoshop+Illustrator final project. My lecturer said my font very OLD FASHIONED! ==.. But overall, I think the outcome was good. ^^ Jia you to myself!!

Urh...

Oversleeping is really bad.

VERY!

Something has definitely went wrong with my body system. I had been oversleeping EVERYDAY!! Wah mia! I feel like choking myself to dead each time I realized that I have overslept.

Fortunately, that doesn't affect me much as I always do my assignments few days earlier. Therefore, it was a SAFE oversleeping huh. =.=""

Final is just around the corner. Or I should say, it is already here. *sigh* Nothing exciting. Just don't get the "ohm" huh. I am just anticipating for the semester break. Wuhoo~~ I guess my classmates must have been thinking about it each time they are pek-cek-ing with their assignments. Wahaha~~

Here are some letterform and calligraphy assignments. We were to express serenity, chaotic and dynamic in typo way. So here are my execution of the three ideas. =)

Serene

Dynamic

Chaotic
I personally love this. =)