Miss Sunshine Says

i tried not to make my life that miserable..
i tried not to be that pessimistic..
i tried not to be a paria..

BUT... can you people just stop doing things that irritate me?!?!?!

telling lies to me is the biggest NO in my life!!! understand? and how dare you lied to me hurh? what?

grandma coming from kl, so i have to teman her go out eat..

whoa.. such lies you can actually create it in one seconds.. whoa! great great great!!!! and the stupidest person in this world, who is me, actually believed what you had said.. chill chill... i have to make myself chill each time i think about what you had done to me.. is it that hard to tell me the truth? just tell me you don't want to follow me to tuition ,that's it!! why must you create an original grandma story to bluff me? am i a 3-year-old kid, my dear friend? and the best thing of all is ..... you can act as good as the oscar best actor!!!! i really have to wish you congratulations ler!!! too bad, i will not wish to speak to you a word anymore! since you are so afraid that i will scold you, i better just shut my mouth.. you must too pray that i never speak a word to you.. because if i really speak to you, you will be in dead trouble!! worst thing of all, you don't even dare to admit what you had done! you don't even have guts to apologize! you are such a coward! oh my! i just couldn't believe that a person whom i trusted so much too tell lies to me.. who am i supposed to trust now??

this poem is created for my dearest friend, jo lin... it's actually teacher's request to ask everyone of us to write an acrostic poem based on our friend's name's initial.. this is the poem that i wrote..

Joyous moment we shared through seasons
Of all the people in the crowd, you stand out
Lustrously brighten my days and nights
Incomparable friendship is what you had given me
Neither shine nor storm may apart our hearts.. (aiks.. like love poem sajer ler..)

haha.. anyway, uhm... jo lin wrote one for me too.. itz posted in her blog, i guess... hehe

oh ya!! i got my salary edi.. seeeeee>>>>


ngek ngek ngek... i am going to get the money out from my bank tomoro!!! hip hip hooray!! can buy new year clothes d.. and can change new spec d!! yay yay yay!!!







*************************************************Lustrously brighten my days and nights

speechless!!!!! how many times do i have to repeatedly doing the same old thing!!??? people just don't get to appreciate whatever i had done.. can't they see my efforts of being a peacemaker.. people just take my love and care for granted. when they need me, i am always there for them.. i will be the one who try to make things better.. but when i just slightly get into anger, they blame me, they show back temper on me, and they can actually forget what i had done for them.. do i seem to be a very not-so-important person? how many years of being a peacemaker,...... do you guys think that i am just being ke-po!?! if you really do, i have nothing to say! responsibilities after responsibilities.. don't i too have pressure? mustn't i have temper at times?? aren't i a human just like you guys are? i am getting so so crazy of things that happened around me these days... even though i still smile and laugh like a happy girl, i still feel the loneliness and emptiness in my heart each time i feel down. i don't know who should be the one i should turn up to when i am down.. i started to lose trust on people around me.. ,..........................................

yesterday, my english teacher did something interesting in da class.. she asked us to describe our personalities with adjectives.. well, i took quite some time to think of words to describe myself.. these are the words:
=individualistic=
=noisy=
=loud=
=hungry=
=patient=
=compassionate=
=ambitious=
=creative=
=choosey=
=fussy=
=optimistic=
=confident=
=artistic=


i think this is a real great thing to do.. usually teachers will just ask someone to describe about someone.. but when it comes to describing our won personalities, it becomes soooo weirdo.. hahax!

hm.. i woke up at 9 am today.. the moment i am done with washing my face, i immediately follow my parents to KL to "hantar stok".. well well, itz actually the biscuit that my mom made.. my aunties bought soooooo many, so my mom have to hantar the stok to them lu.. well, i knew that tat would be my advantage to go shopping!! lolx!! i am so desperate for new year's cloth ler.. but i dun dare to voice out my opinion to go shopping as my dad hates shopping these days.. I DONT GET IT WHY!! surprisingly, he suggested to go to the new pyramid.. >.<.. well, i went to Wild Channel&Tropicana Life shop... THATZ THE SHOP I WANT TO GO SO SO MUCH!! at first,my mom suggested me to go all those ladies shop! oh plz! those dresses sucks man.. so low quality... but soooo expensive.. i rather spend more on shops like Esprit or East India to buy a better quality dress to wear even though the price is a bit higher compare to shops like Geb, Vees, and Nichii.. at least Esprit's dress is not as thin as Vees' dress lo.. anyway, talking about tropicana life, i bought this long sleeve shirt..i pretty love this shirt!! it looks pretty cool to me.. hehek.. i can't wait to wear it!! have to wait for a month more...

salary........ faster come out........ i wanna buy presents for fren.. but no $$$$... i wanna buy new shoes.. but no $$$$$... i wanna buy belt.. but no $$$$

awh!!!!!

argh!! i am getting very very crazy with the Taekwondo members d!! they are so not committed at all.. i could sense the deadness of the club. Committee without commitment, club without approval, training without newcomers,... AWH!! the feeling sucks man! this saturday we will be having a short demo to attract the newbies to join taekwondo training.. hopefully things turn out well well.. if not, I WILL CRY ler!! T___T.. linda stopped tkd, q peng planned to stop,... therefore, sooner or later kah mun and wen sze will leave... GRACIOUS!!! what am i supposed to do?!?!@#$%^&

arh! just feel like throwing away those problems behind! let me show you guys my bday present!!it might look a bit small here.. can have a better look in my frenster lu... haix.. when can i get my salary???? i am short of money now.. i didn't dare to ask for the Taekwondo renewal fee.. so i decided to use my precious allowance to pay for it.. RM40 weh.. sobs sobs.. this is my life until my secondary life ends.. or maybe even in the future, i will still suffer with counting how many notes i have in everyday... how sad....=(

i guess not many of you know what a black belt book is.. well, it's actually considered a passport for the Taekwondo black belt holders. I HAD BEEN SEARCHING THIS ....... P-R-E-C-I-O-U-S THING FOR THREE DAYS!! today is the time when i really broke down and cried when i still couldn't find it in every corner of my room.. i could not find any reason the black belt book will be anywhere out of my room.. i searched all my drawers for thousand times but IT WASN'T THERE!!!!!! grrr...... some times i just got so down that i actually lie down on the floor and let my face kissed the floor.. and i started to grumble.. why must i shift to the new house.. if i am still staying in the old house, this trouble will not come... how can it be not with the other stuffs.. why and why... awh!!! i seek help from kelvin.... xin yee.... i don't dare to inform my taekwondo teacher.. i could imagine her saying,"TERRIBLE..." oh no!!!! at last, i don't know what made me called jie huey.. she started to tell me, sure can find one.. not to worry.. shifting house always causes things to be misplaced.. after the call, i seriously don't know what sense had i got which made me walked into my eldest sister's room, bent my waist, and looked under her bed!!! and hell no!!! the black belt book is under the bed!!! i burst into tears immediately!! after 3 miserable days of seeking for the sooooooo P-R-E-C-I-O-U-S thing, finally , i found it!!!!!! phewh!! thanks lots to jie huei, my lucky star!!

well, as expected, many people will blog about school reopening! zzz... and as expected again, many people will blog about how terrible it is in the school, with all da streaming, new faces in da class, or mostly about how much they hate to be in the same class with whoever and so on....

it was quite a pissed off day today.. firstly, our school had built a no-one-is-hoping-for-it's bumbung which covered up the whole assembly area. the reason they built this is to ensure that we do not need to walk under the rain during rainy days......... BUT,....... from now onwards, we'll have no more reason for cancelling the assembly!!!! AWH!!!!! that's too bad.. even one of my teachers doesn't want the bumbung at all. ps/she also hates to have assembly wor..wakaka!!

secondly, it's about the class streaming looo... everyone is busy talking about changing class, gossiping about ppl which they think they couldn't communicate with,..... grr... boring-fying topics!!! it's just another one year to go!!! learn to live with it man.... haix!

thirdly, grrr..... we have to wrap all the textbook given!!!!!! I took two hours to wrap all the books man... i was soooooooo sleepy.. thatz why i wrap it soooo selamba-ly... biarlah! i don't think i will touch certain textbook for more than 10 times eh..

lastly,................. i felt so left out by some of my friends. i wonder is there any problem with me or the problem is with them.. why am i always the last to know, and why am i the one who they bother at times, but sometimes not at all,........ *sigh*

happy birthday to myself!!! >.<

hey guys! happy new year!!! and i wanna wish dear audrey happy birthday too!! i guess she's enjoying her birthday party now! yday was new year eve.. i went to countdown in the new jusco with mun chun, huat and eric.. we played crazily that night! haha.. i will always remember the day!! pictures will be posted soon.. ^^