Miss Sunshine Says

One of the things that I treasure most in my life is my water colour palette.

It is dirty.

It is messy.

It never takes its bath, not even once.

But,...

I just love the way it is.

I heart water colour painting.. ♥ ♥ ♥

夜深人静
我
静悄悄地
把冰箱打开~
嗯!
我就是要你~~

Mmm....可口可乐鸡肉~~酷毙了!! V[^-^]V

冰冷的你
实在是帅到~~~~~

>.<

最近，被人家误会得乱七八糟。

我也没有当场澄清什么的。

我只能说，你们猜错了啦~

他，只是好朋友。像家人般的好朋友。
我很喜欢跟他在一起的时刻。但是，又说不上是爱上了他。
聊天的时候不会尴尬，不会害羞。
就凭这一点，我就可以很肯定的说，我和他，并非是你们所想的。
难免会想到一些问题。为什么男女之间不能只是好朋友的关系呢?其实，我觉得ok呃。不懂为什么大家只要看到某个谁跟某个谁走得进一点就以为人家在拍拖。=_="

其实，真正让我脸红心跳的是另有其人。
见面是会害羞。难以遮掩脸红。
聊天时会kek kek地。因为，会紧张，会心跳加速。
上课时也会偶尔想到他。
吃饭时会在想他是否也在吃饭。
睡觉前会想想我们是否有未来~
这个才是我喜欢的"他"。 [^-^]

他和他，同一个时间出现在两个不同的范围里。除了感恩和感谢，我还能说什么呢?

This is an old topic. But I just feel like talking about it once again.

We are all grown-ups. There is no point waiting for people to spoon feed us anymore. No direct answers will be given for the questions. It's time for us to discover the answers ourselves. If you haven't done so, start now!!!

Once, there was a lecturer who told me this.

Never try to tell me "I don't know how" when you didn't even put effort in figuring out how.

亲爱的星期四，

真的很抱歉。本来已经计划好好要怎样征服你的。怎知，我还是让你失望了。

Well, finally I have the mood to blog again.

我说我呀~~ 只要一有什么东西没掌握好，自己就在那边紧张。。怕到不敢开始动手。现在又来酱。。很不健康捏~

Zzz。。。

不要再逃避了啦。。

快点开始吧。。。

T_______T

*piak*

你现在到底清楚了吗
那麽多年仔细躲避悲伤
到了今天仍然还在装傻
快放下
快放下

游乐，苏打绿

Sicky me.

Guess I am not experiencing normal tiredness.

I kept feeling dizzy, as though my brain is lacked of oxygen these days. I even almost fell off the chair last Saturday.

I had been sleeping from 9pm to 7am two nights back.

After having 10 hours of sleep, I still look like ghost. My college mates thought that I never slept at all. == After I went home, I slept again from 2.30 to 6pm. I started to feel tired at 12am. I finally slept at 2am till 10am, which made it 8 hours of sleep. At 12pm, I already feel tired. Started feeling dizzy. I was told that I am lacked of blood. They called it 贫血 in chinese. T__T

I really wanna recover asap. I have many things that I want to do, but I have no strength to do so. Dizzy.. I wanna nap again..

Sometimes, I find myself putting too much of effort in helping people. No matter how tired I am, as long as that person is a friend that I appreciate, I will still put my best effort in helping him/her to solve the problem. Yeah. So after the helping is done, as usual, people will thank me. "Oh, thank you so much for the help!! You are so kind" And there goes the blah and blah and blah. But, when it was my turn asking for help, ..... things are different. Well, I am not saying that I help people for the sake of getting something in return. But, I thought friends are supposed to help each other you know. I only need your little time to help me. Compare to how long I took to help you in the past, what would that little time cost you? I seriously have no idea why. I really don't want to count you on that. But, thanks to the "good" weather, I just can't stop thinking in a pessimistic way. *sigh* Anyhow, gratefully there was still someone who was so kind to help me. The whole scenario created such a big contrast between you and that kind friend. I still have to say you truly disappoint me. Very much. I will still treat you like a friend of mine. But somehow, the feeling is really different. I have lost faith in you.

What else that made my day sucks..

My lovely bottle went "pok kai"(扑街) today. I was in the mini bus. Well, the mini bus never shut its door. The bus was moving unevenly that my bottle ran out of my hand, rolled to the entrance, and POK-KAI-ED. Okay. The moment I saw my beloved bottle, crashing on the tarred road, I just stunned there and acted as though I wasn't feeling hard at all. I went on chit chatting with my schoolmate in the bus. After I reached college, I just couldn't stop flashing back the whole incident; how it actually pok to the road. Omg~~ What an ironic dying way my bottle had.. T__T

And and and... not to forget about this stupid weather. I really love rainy days. But, not today! It was like centuries back that I last wore in a more feminine way to college. Finally, today I made an attempt to wear so. Just feeling right to wear like this today. BUT........HOW COULD IT RAIN??? Damn damn damn.... If it was just a drizzle, I am fine with that. But it rained like SHIT! I had enough to worry about. And I still had to worry of my shoes getting wet and so on so forth just because of this damn rain.

Besides all the shits that I had been facing today, yesterday was not any better than today. == I wasted one holy day on one figure as I am not in the mood at all. When it was the midnight, someone pissed me off like no one else could. Yeah, THANKS TO YOU, I feel so pissed! You also realized that you pissed me off right? Thank god you ain't that blur yet. I thought you were having so much of hahaha and lol until you never realized that the person you are talking to is not giving you any good response. Yayaya.. She loves you so much. So just go ahead with her. Don't come to me and bla bla bla anymore. You ain't making my day any better!!! It's none of my concern how you feel about her and how you wanna settle all these things. I don't wanna know all that. Unless you have made up your mind on what you wanna do, or else, don't mess up with my life anymore.

I guess I am done with vomiting my unhappy things! Chaos~

仍然脱离不了时好时坏~

But, it's okay I guess. 我，身为再普通不过的人(废话)一定会有失手的时候。

以前，一失手就会有种跌入地狱的感觉。想哭，沮丧!

现在，ok 啦。在学习的过程中不可能有百分百的成功。反正，try一下新的东西也ok。没try过又怎么会知道work不work。就算成果并没有达到最好的效果，至少，我自己知道，我已努力过。而且，也领悟到那一招到底work不work了了。所以，以后就不会在犯下同样的错咯! ^^

我没有在自我安慰啦。说真的啦。。来了THE ONE。获益匪浅! 心理变化也极大~ 回头一看，原来自己变了这么多。以前的我真的太肤浅了。现在，也不算好到那里去。哈哈~At least,我还蛮满意现在的progress啦。

时好时坏，也不见得是一件坏事吧。习惯了就不会那么害怕成功的天堂与失败的地狱~

Let's talk about Wei Ting's birthday celebration first. It was her birthday yesterday. And,.. DUH! Of course we will celebrate for this little kiddo! Haha!

Always the four of us. Why So Lame looked as though he was frozen? =.="

Xin and 23!!! Haha~~

Wahlao~ Hsiao Shen geh pose.. Lol~~

大家笑到见牙不见眼~~ ^-^

Oh no! Simon kena aluba!! LOL~~ *pain*

Ita daki masu!!

Ahh~~

Everyone! Cheers~~

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很可笑的是
我找不到理由去辩解这一切。

Yer.. I don't like this kind of feeling loh. (>-<)

Very unfair.

You are so selfish.

Gahhh~~~

个人喜好没有绝对

如果这样就算肤浅

那种脑袋才可悲

对对对对对

怎么说都对

你们很奇怪捏

一下说要悲 一下又说不够K

你只要耶耶 不要一直变变

不然就给我钱 我就装乖不吠

我觉得,

我

永远

是

个

罪人

。


只要我一发言，我就注定得罪人，伤害人。

可我还是个再普通不过的人。

普通得来，又有点聪明过头。我指的不是knowledge的聪明，而是思想的聪明。有很多东西，我都会在空档时间里一一分析。发生的一切，都很少会让它不了了之。大家都觉得成果比过程重要。可我无法这么想。过程中的小小细节，我都有放在眼里。我都很在意。所以，"失惊无神"出现的成果如果跟我在过程中看到的，体会到的大大不同，。。。。er。。很奇怪咯。><

无意要让任何人感到伤心失望。我只不过想说出我的感受，我的想法而已。 我真的无力一直站在他人的角度去体谅人家。请你们也站在我这儿，看看我该怎么想的吧~ 我是真的累了呃。

No doubt. My mind is very messed up, once again.

Too many stories. Too many to think. Too hard to respond.

I wasn't in the story. I was just the spectator, watching how things are going on. Well, very disappointing one. Really. The more I know, the more restless I feel. =.="

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我想，我没有资格说什么吧。 如果要我惊讶的反应，那只会显得我又狼狈，又白痴。我只能什么都不去想。所有的为什么，除非是你们说，否则我是不会问的。 你们快乐就好了。

It was a big day for me. Nah.. It's not my birthday. It's that I was to do a presentation on an ad for my Language Communication Skill.

Let's talk about the whole process of preparation for this presentation. First of all, we already fixed our customer as KTMB. Then, we moved on to doing surveys. REAL surveys. Then, we thought of the problems and solutions together. Somehow, we were stuck when it comes to thinking of how to create an ad that could create a great impact on our target audience. Well, gratefully, we managed to combine two different ideas which Liang and I thought of together. I have to really thank Miss Pinky for giving us so many great suggestions. Without her, my group might end up in the wrong path. Since we decided to use the storytelling way (where we gonna present our ad in a comic way), the drawing and painting are the ones that are so gonna eat up lotsa time. The painting are only done by today, 3 in the morning. I woke up with my eyes opening, but brain sleeping to receive the file from my team mate. I didn't have the strength to do the photoshop work. Therefore, I ended up sleeping. Thanks to myself. I rushed like mad in the morning to complete the unfinished work.
Liang had really made a good job drawing and painting it. It's rather draft but the concept is clearly presented. I love the slogan as well (coz I thought of it de la.. XD) So damn lan si! ><

♥It's hard to keep the happiness that I am feeling to myself. Don't mind me sharing to you guys here. I am not showing off okay. But, I am serious happy with the outcome and the marks that we get in return. If some of you notice my facebook status weeks back, I wrote there, "Damn pissed!! Hard work does not equivalent to successful outcome!! WHYYYY..." I really feel so restless about the hard work that I am consistent contributing. BUTTTT...... Today, I can sense the hope once again. Successful outcome really requires lotsa hard work! Though there were days that I got really stressed up, worried, and pissed, all these seems to be nothing big deal when the overall outcome turned out to be so wonderful. [^-^]V

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Okay. Let's get out of the topic. I don't really like this kind of feeling, when I start to really dislike someone. This is bad. It's really bad to have a bad perception on others. But, there is just this particular person that I used to really like, but I started to dislike little by little. I could sense that xx has no one in xx's eyes. All xx thought of is the benefit! I think it's a selfish act! Really selfish. It really unfair for the others as well. Maybe others can't see thru your eyes. But some of us have seen your selfish side. Siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas lorh. No need to mention out who you are. Yes, you are fast, you are efficient. But, have you even thought at the others' side. You take the good eggs, and left the rotten eggs for the others just for the sake of cooking a good dish. So, you are happy to see the others dealing in difficulties with the rotten eggs? I just feel that, everyone should know how to balance up everything. No point you take the best eggs(which you think they are the best) now. You are definitely not going to deal with good eggs in the future. You are so gonna work in an environment of both active and passive people. Why not learning how to deal with those passive ones(which you think they are) when you are in the college? Are you really that afraid of the harsh road? =.= I thought I am kiasu. But, now, I think you are kiasu-er than me. I lost. XD
(Sorry for using xx and eggs as the comparison. I couldn't think of anything else)

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Next I would like to talk about friendships. Really disappointing. Although I have nothing to do with it, but as an outsider, I just don't like it when I heard of it. Where is the tolerance? Where is the faith? Damn. Do you guys know what I care most? I don't really bother what outsiders criticize me. I might just take it as a critic, but I won't feel so damn hurt. But, when it comes to close friends, conducting an act to abandon me and criticize me, this sucks! Really sucks! Stop judging your best friend okay. Try to think, if you were him/her, what you will feel. Harsh words are crime okay!!

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BTW, today is my lame friend, Tzu Zing's birthday. Lalala~~ I know it's your birthday today ah.. But please don't eat too much k. You still got a bet with me! XD!!

Buddies!!

En.. K larh.. I think that's all for today. Wishing for a great day tomorrow. MEATBALLLLLLL, I AM COMING~~~~