Miss Sunshine Says

Life hasn’t been very kind to be these while. One matter comes after another. And what should I do?

1. take trouble to worried about all the problems
2. share all these problems with all my best friend (I don’t think it’s a great choice now after being betrayed once)
3. just stay cool and let it be what it should be

Well well, last time I would most probably choose the first choice. I will stay whole night, without sleeping to think of the reasons this matter occurred and keep on blaming myself or the others. Then, I find this way does not work at all. So, I started to share my problems with friends. After all my trust to a person, telling him my deepest secrets and problems to him, finally he did not keep his promise for keeping them a secret. Can I still trust him? I don’t think so. Even though the problem between he and I is already settled, there’s still something in my heart that stopped me from telling him anything. He is not to be trusted anymore. So, in the end, which is now, I prefer to keep everything to myself and stay cool with all the downs in my life. Recently, I had watched a Japanese drama, One Liter of Tears. I guess many of you know this show. Yeah, this drama is a real great drama, and it succeeded in making my tears fall!!! I just couldn’t stop crying during certain parts of the drama. Many people watch drama for the sake of entertainment, but for me, I watch drama for the sake of learning. From this drama, I had learnt a lot! I realized that life is just so weak. Our lifespan is just so so short. If we don’t appreciate the time and chances given, we might just leave this world with regrets. The heroin of this drama, Aya, who was an active fifteen in both curricular and co curricular finally lost all her ability to do things that she loves to. After getting the illness, she could not even walk like a norm. I just couldn’t believe myself sitting on a wheelchair one day.

Malaysia is getting more dangerous these days. Everyday when you flip the newspaper, you can definitely see handbag snatching case! I don’t get why the snatcher wants to do crime!!! Where have the moral values gone to??? Even if you ask me to steal a rm10 from my mom’s handbag, it already seems to be so so hard for me to do so. But how could the snatcher actually snatches handbags, gold chains, and handphones EVERYDAY!! Yesterday, one of the victims was my eldest sister. While she was waiting for LRT in Pasar Seni station, her handbag got snatched by someone. I don’t know what had really happened because she did not came back home yesterday as she is staying in my uncle’s house this month. But, the camera that I had just borrowed her on Sunday has gone! Handphone, IC, car license, Touch n Go, all the membership cards, I Pod Nao, A-L-L G-O-N-E!!!! camera RM900 + useless handphone RM100 + I POD RM750 + Touch n GO RM160 = RM1910!! WAH LAO WEH!!! The fela really untung gila la!! But untung also no use! I cursed the snatcher that he is going to be snatched soon also!!! Herh!! Let him taste the feeling of being snatched also!! Pa ria wan! My camera kesayangan also dare to snatch!! But, let bygones be bygones…. I also did not want to mention it anymore. It’s just the things that she had lost. I should actually thank god that it wasn’t her that was “snatched” away. However, my mom does not think like what I do. She took a big fuss on it. My whole night was filled up with her mumblings. I told her to take it easy, but in the end, I got scolded by her. SO FINALLY, I chose to be silent. SHHHH…..

No more camwhoring,……. I have to say goodbye to my camwhore life for a few months… *sobs sobs*