Miss Sunshine Says

On the 19th of February, Siew Woon is going to be SEVENTEEN!!!! Wrapped her present today.. Kinda love the wrapping this time!!





Can't wait for 19th of February!!!!
p/s:Look's like I am more excited than her.... haha

Finally I get to see HER!!!!

It's valentine's day!! And I could feel is just suffer!!! Why? That's because I was having terrible stomachache since yesterday. It's as if there was thorns in my stomach since y'day. Poor Joe Jian. Lol...However, it's quite good to be sick! Why? As teachers don't really teach yesterday. They were busy discussing about the holiday homework. None of my business...hahaha... so I slept almost the whole time in school. Today, there was this Bengkel Pengurusan Pemimpin Kelab that must be attended by the high post of the clubs. I am the secretary of Rumah Hijau. SO.... I HAVE TO ATTEND!!! It was a very boring one! It started with speeches by "speech-er", which is the headmistress and the "don't-know-who". I just couldn't explain to you readers about the boring-ness of the speech! And the don’t-know-who called the projector as TELEVISION! My goodness!!! I burst into laughter when I heard that. Hahaha.... After the break, they had this ice-breaking activities. As my stomach was really not feeling comfortable, I skipped! I slept at the corridor outside the hall. Finally, Pn Rashidah who passed by the corridor asked me to enter my class to sleep. GREAT! That would be much better! But somehow, when I entered the class and tried to sleep, I find myself so bersemangat as if I just drank Brand's chicken essence!! LOL! Since there's no teacher in my class, I went to next door to kecoh. Surprisingly, I saw Audrey and Lynn were friends back. That seriously made me feel so DILEMMA..... people who knew what's between us will understand what I meant.

Well, well, there was a choir practice today. The coach came late!!!! I shall teach him punctuality!! Anyway, he is quite pro la. So, speechless-------- my playing sucks today. So many wrong notes and so not in beat! Grrrrr.... hopefully I will play better in tomorrow's practice. Tak mau sia sui sendiri la...

Went to tuition right after choir practice. As expected, someone was going to date with someone. So, Dee and I tau-tau la. Let the someone to have chance to meet with someone. HA-HA-HA!!! Siew Woon fell sick. So, I HAVE TO SIT ALONE!! I don't want my Valentine's Day to be lonely!!! So, I "paksa" Eric to sit with me. But, Mun Chun pula wanna sit with Eric. So, finally, three of us sat together. During break time, I was asked to go out with "someone". I thought what the person want to do. Rupa-rupanya the person wanna apologize to me. SWT... =___=!! But, bother la. I feel much better hearing the person apologize to me... hehe...

That's all for today.....

Happy Valentine’s Day!!

Life hasn’t been very kind to be these while. One matter comes after another. And what should I do?

1. take trouble to worried about all the problems
2. share all these problems with all my best friend (I don’t think it’s a great choice now after being betrayed once)
3. just stay cool and let it be what it should be

Well well, last time I would most probably choose the first choice. I will stay whole night, without sleeping to think of the reasons this matter occurred and keep on blaming myself or the others. Then, I find this way does not work at all. So, I started to share my problems with friends. After all my trust to a person, telling him my deepest secrets and problems to him, finally he did not keep his promise for keeping them a secret. Can I still trust him? I don’t think so. Even though the problem between he and I is already settled, there’s still something in my heart that stopped me from telling him anything. He is not to be trusted anymore. So, in the end, which is now, I prefer to keep everything to myself and stay cool with all the downs in my life. Recently, I had watched a Japanese drama, One Liter of Tears. I guess many of you know this show. Yeah, this drama is a real great drama, and it succeeded in making my tears fall!!! I just couldn’t stop crying during certain parts of the drama. Many people watch drama for the sake of entertainment, but for me, I watch drama for the sake of learning. From this drama, I had learnt a lot! I realized that life is just so weak. Our lifespan is just so so short. If we don’t appreciate the time and chances given, we might just leave this world with regrets. The heroin of this drama, Aya, who was an active fifteen in both curricular and co curricular finally lost all her ability to do things that she loves to. After getting the illness, she could not even walk like a norm. I just couldn’t believe myself sitting on a wheelchair one day.

Malaysia is getting more dangerous these days. Everyday when you flip the newspaper, you can definitely see handbag snatching case! I don’t get why the snatcher wants to do crime!!! Where have the moral values gone to??? Even if you ask me to steal a rm10 from my mom’s handbag, it already seems to be so so hard for me to do so. But how could the snatcher actually snatches handbags, gold chains, and handphones EVERYDAY!! Yesterday, one of the victims was my eldest sister. While she was waiting for LRT in Pasar Seni station, her handbag got snatched by someone. I don’t know what had really happened because she did not came back home yesterday as she is staying in my uncle’s house this month. But, the camera that I had just borrowed her on Sunday has gone! Handphone, IC, car license, Touch n Go, all the membership cards, I Pod Nao, A-L-L G-O-N-E!!!! camera RM900 + useless handphone RM100 + I POD RM750 + Touch n GO RM160 = RM1910!! WAH LAO WEH!!! The fela really untung gila la!! But untung also no use! I cursed the snatcher that he is going to be snatched soon also!!! Herh!! Let him taste the feeling of being snatched also!! Pa ria wan! My camera kesayangan also dare to snatch!! But, let bygones be bygones…. I also did not want to mention it anymore. It’s just the things that she had lost. I should actually thank god that it wasn’t her that was “snatched” away. However, my mom does not think like what I do. She took a big fuss on it. My whole night was filled up with her mumblings. I told her to take it easy, but in the end, I got scolded by her. SO FINALLY, I chose to be silent. SHHHH…..

No more camwhoring,……. I have to say goodbye to my camwhore life for a few months… *sobs sobs*

after all the yucky pictures... let's look at the sweet ones!!

it's time to DISSECT THE FROG!!!!!! yesterday, my class had a very "BIG" task to do... which is to dissect a froggy!! many girls especially those who are not in science stream will definitely say, EWH!!!! err... yeah! it's quiet ewh-y. haha.. but i just couldn't stop laughing each time i looked at the frog. The frog was bought by Jo Lin. Maybe due to that reason, the frog only love'd' staring at dear Jo.. haix! but too bad.. it's meant to be killed... (T____T)

so, here comes the time to make the frog faints by using the CHLOROFORM! imagine someone forces you to breathe in CHLOROFORM... owh my!! we threw in the cotton with the chloroform into the container.. my heart was feeling sorry to the frog when i see the frog struggling in the container, using as much energy as it could to get out of the container.. look at this pic!! it's freaking scary!
THE STRUGGLE!!

haix.. finally, it had fainted!!!! i lazy to explain step by step ler... so PEOPLE... if you wanna scroll down to see further more photos, make sure you are not afraid to see blood!!!!!! hahahax...










Our frog is a male one.. well, it's not that we found the penis la!! it's just we could see ovaries eh.. haix.. i was expecting for a female one... this is a female frog's egg egg!! *other group's*

during my favourite Sunday!!!!,...... i went to this new commercial complex in Damansara, called NiuZeXui.. There was events going on by the My FM dj.. it was quite fun.. but i have no guts to go up the stage ler.. pai seh betul..hahax.. the main reason my family and I went there was to use up the rm100 voucher gifted by my dad's client... ngek ngek ngek.. we went to Big Apple Donuts to eat our lunch+teatime (it was already 3.00pm that time).. amazingly, the total of the food and the beverages ordered was rm50! perfectly, i paid the cashier with the rm50 voucher.. he looked at me with a stunt look.. coz tak sangka the total could be so ngam ngam ho merh.. kaka.. then we went shopping around lo.. the place was quite big.. it's sumthing like Petaling Street la.. got lots of ciplak stuff there.. kakax.. while i was walking alone, i saw "The Cute Shop".. It's sumthing like Pet Shop.. but slightly cheaper than Pet Shop.. and the design is almost the same la.. but, to say tat it's a barangan ciplak den cannot la.. see this bag that i bought..it costed me for rm 64 weh!! no joke.. the fela kept on saying, hand made wan.. very nice wan.. swt.. bother la.. since i had been hoping to have a bag like tat for so long, so i just bought it lo.. my mom pay most la actually.. i pay rm10 nia.. hahax..

I bought this in padini!! love it so much.. coz it looks very SAKAI! hahax.. sakai me!


after all the buyings, i found out tat MY PRECIOUS WATCH!!! IT IS BROKEN!!don't ask me how did i break it!! because i seriously don't know.. i had been wearing this watch for 3 years ++ edi le.. it was my birthday present from my dad!!! MY FOSSIL WATCH...sobs sobs.. and now i have to wear the mickey mouse watch to school.. swt...

it should be over.. but too bad, it isn't.. Jo and I were told that the matter will be settled on Monday. Another time of disappointment school teachers had gave me. They announced our name on assembly in the morning to give us the prize.. but they dared not to announce the position? why? is it because the guilt in themselves now? i wonder... when i found out the trophy i got is written "tempat ke-15", i was kind of speechless.. what kind of thing they used to stuff into my mouth so that i will stop whatever i had done last saturday.. do i need them to sympathize me by just simply give me a trophy where it's actually the balance???? I AIN'T A BEGGAR! i do not need them to pity me. I am very sure that they knew the truth! but why? as a teacher, why not just admit it? even a student can be much more braver than them. if they are willing to say a sorry to me for all the matters, i am okay with it even if they do not want to give me the trophy which Jo and I deserve.It's a sad thing when i walked into the office to try to convince Pn Chua to investigate the matter again, Pn Azimah asked me to place a deposit of RM100 to make an objection. Aren't the school build for students? why do we have to place a deposit when we are the main reason the school is built? it doesn't make sense in any way.. she asked me, "do i trust my teachers??" well, yes, BUT CERTAINLY NOT ALL OF THEM.. the main problem now is, even my own teacher who taught me last time, and know me so so well did not trust me... and, these teachers are expecting me to trust them.. HOW CAN I ACTUALLY TRUST THEM SAYING THAT I NEVER PASSED BY THE CHECKPOINT WHEN I ACTUALLY DO?! to all the readers of my blog, DO YOU TRUST ME? these teachers ignore all the facts that benefits Jo and I, and exaggerate the small possibilities that can make them into the right!!! anyway, let me make things clear.. the "teachers" that i am mentioning now is only certain teachers.. not all.. after all the arguments, i found out there is no point arguing with these teachers when they are all liars and cowards!! on a perfect time, she asked, "atau kamu nak saya tarik balik trofi itu?".... GREAT! i just returned her the trophy, and said, "Terima kasih cikgu..
" THAT'S THE COOLEST THING I HAD EVEN DONE IN MY LIFE MAN!!! i feel so right when i said that! i had never been that firm before on what i should do, but that moment, was a very very memorable moment...

LET ME SAY A FEW THINGS:

1. I do not need sympathy

2. I am the right one in this matter.. *everyone knows*

3. Certain teachers who have the power in their hand aren't willing to say out the truth. NO GUTS!

4. To Mr Teh, STOP MAKING ASSUMPTIONS! It hurts!

5.--------------------------i will stop the fight. I know i had told some of you that i will fight for my right no matter what. But, I just couldn't find any possibilities the teachers will admit that the problem happened due to the weak system of jotting down the candidates numbers at the checkpoint! but dear teachers, ARE YOU HAVING NIGHTMARE EVERY NIGHT?!??!?! IF YES, it shows how GUILTY you are to Jo and I!!! Jesus Christ, Gautama, and Allah are looking at what you cowards and cheaters are doing... BE AWARE WHEN YOU WALK... i am just warning.. ^^

there was a cross country events in my school yesterday.. actually, i did not really wanna aim for anything this year as i am happy enough to win a second prize last year.. this year,... i decided to just run with jolin and pei shan.. i did not really force myself to run.. taking my own sweet time with jo and shan.. the track was 5.8KM ler.. longer than last year's track by 2.8KM.. a big difference actually.. we ran and walk all the way together.. and fortunately, jo got no.7, i got no.9 and shan got no.14.. all of us were very proud of the achievement as we did not really expect much ler.. just when we were happily enjoying the moment of pride, my name and jo's name weren't in the list of winners.. we were said to be disqualified.. but the weirdest thing is shan's name was still in the list.. it is so RIDICULOUS.. so we asked the tcher for the reasons that we are disqualified.. we were said to be not passing the important checkpoints.. what the?!! i told myself, no matter wat, i have to fight for my rights!! so i went to find mr.teh.. he, the most idiotic person in this world, making stupid assumptions that jo and I ran the old track.. then, he asked me whether i know where's the checkpoint or not.. i answered him la, "Sir, when I am busy running, do i have to notice where's the checkpoint, who's the tchers there??" then he continued, "then, most probably you nvr passed thru'.. that's why you don't know.." It's so damn ridiculous man!! then this matter is brought up to the office.. pn.azimah, the head of kokurikulum, also making up stupid possibilities.. she said, there got so many shops.. maybe i used the shortcuts.. then i said la, IT'S SO IMPOSSIBLE!! coz shan ran with us all the way throughout the track.. but how cum shan's number is jotted at the checkpoint, but jo's and mine were not.. guess what she answered, "Saya tak boleh percaya kawan kamu semua.." WHOA LAO WEH... excuse me cher! all the winners of the cross country event for Form 5 can prove that we ran the whole track.. but the teachers did not want to believe wat jo and i said.. fine!! then, they called the teacher who is in charge of the specific checkpoint to prove that.. but how unfortunately, it was the "idiotest" person in the school, PN. NURIAH! whoa lao.. when i saw her only ah... i could sense the possibilities of her saying that she nvr saw jo and I at all.. bcoz, there was once, last year's case, even though she knew that she's in the wrong, but, she refused to admit her fault, and assume that I am the wrong one.. and this time, i guessed the same thing might just happen with no surprise.. well well, AS EXPECTED, she shook her head and was so firmed that she did not see jo and I.. wow.. i must award her, the best liar among the teachers man.. it was bcoz of her one "NO", jo and I was so depressed immediately, and broke down.. the teachers kept on saying that we shouldn't cry, but how can we not cry when the certain bitchy teachers kept on making up ridiculous assumptions????? they made me so speechless at one moment.. then, as i still don't want to give up, they finally called all the teachers who is in charge of checkpoints to have a discussion whether to trust whatever jo and I said or not.. jo and i walked to another block of the school to CRY.. lolx!! that sounds childish, i know.. but i was just tooooooo frustrated at that time.. i couldn't hold my tears anymore.. pn.norita came to us and comfort us.. finally, after a short discussion, majority wins! most teachers trusted us.. let me emphasize sumthing,"UNLIKE SOME OTHER TEACHER WHO NVR INVESTIGATE PROPERLY THEN SIMPLE MAKE ASSUMPTIONS AND ACCUSE US!" my ketua rumah sukan said tat they will announce the correction on monday... jo and I did not realise tat the prize giving ceremony for the Form 5 winners was on.. so we did not get to the stage.. but even if i heard them announcing my name, i also won't go up and take the prize la.. it was such a disgrace!! haix.. bother la.. all the matters are settled now.. but i will always remember how foolish certain teachers made us to be today!! and i will always remember too how warm certain teachers made me feel.. especially, Pn. Chia, Pn.Norita, Mdm.Lee and Ms. Vimala.. thanks for trusting us.. Thanks to dear Mr.Teh and Pn Nuriah for showing me how idiotic both of u can be!!!

dear myself, it's all about my fault again... finally, i realised that my truest friend whom i thought was, was also disagreed with all the things that i had done.. the pain in my heart cannot be described with words.. dear friend, you had given me a very very big impact in my life.. according to what you said, i am an arrogant person, i don't care about my friend's feeling, i'd got so many things that you are unhappy with.. if that's true, why you never reveal it? c'mmon! show me if you are unhappy with whatever i am doing.. don't pretend to be listener whom i trusted so so much and in the end, you still chose not to keep the conversation between us!! don't you feel guilty? don't you ever think at my good side? dear friend, i never even tried to backstab or complain anything about you at all ,don't you know that? you was such a best friend of mine, whom i care and appreciate so much.. all the goods that you'd done to me, it's all saved in my mind.. i always remind myself not to forget the positive side of you whenever we have a little unhappiness.. when your birthday was coming soon, i was the one who planned your b'day,... i was the one who rather spend the only money left in my purse just to buy a birthday cake for you without hoping for anything back.. i was the one who advise you, worry of you and care about you no matter what happens.. i wonder if you are really glad to have a friend like me.. in your thoughts now, i am just a barbarian.. i always say things that hurt people's feeling.. i am a materialistic person... YES, I AM!! I was , I am and I will be still the same old me since last time till now and forever ever.. isn't this the same old me when you first knew me? i am a barbarian since last time.. if you don't like the way i do stuff, then just walk off la. why did you treated me like a pearl last time, AND now, why did you find me so wrong these days? what had i offended you?? or maybe, it's nothing wrong with me, but it is just that you had changed... changed to a person who is so sensitive with all the things i do?? i seriously don't know......... you weren't like that last time.. you are such a trustworthy person.. that's why i am always willing to share all my ups and downs with you.. but why? why had you betrayed my heart? why must you give me reasons to hate you so much? you must you make me in dilemma now?!?!?! WHY WHY WHY???

God, please give me the strength to move on.. i am going to fall soon... i need guide, i need to hear the truth,only the truth!

i tried not to make my life that miserable..
i tried not to be that pessimistic..
i tried not to be a paria..

BUT... can you people just stop doing things that irritate me?!?!?!

telling lies to me is the biggest NO in my life!!! understand? and how dare you lied to me hurh? what?

grandma coming from kl, so i have to teman her go out eat..

whoa.. such lies you can actually create it in one seconds.. whoa! great great great!!!! and the stupidest person in this world, who is me, actually believed what you had said.. chill chill... i have to make myself chill each time i think about what you had done to me.. is it that hard to tell me the truth? just tell me you don't want to follow me to tuition ,that's it!! why must you create an original grandma story to bluff me? am i a 3-year-old kid, my dear friend? and the best thing of all is ..... you can act as good as the oscar best actor!!!! i really have to wish you congratulations ler!!! too bad, i will not wish to speak to you a word anymore! since you are so afraid that i will scold you, i better just shut my mouth.. you must too pray that i never speak a word to you.. because if i really speak to you, you will be in dead trouble!! worst thing of all, you don't even dare to admit what you had done! you don't even have guts to apologize! you are such a coward! oh my! i just couldn't believe that a person whom i trusted so much too tell lies to me.. who am i supposed to trust now??

this poem is created for my dearest friend, jo lin... it's actually teacher's request to ask everyone of us to write an acrostic poem based on our friend's name's initial.. this is the poem that i wrote..

Joyous moment we shared through seasons
Of all the people in the crowd, you stand out
Lustrously brighten my days and nights
Incomparable friendship is what you had given me
Neither shine nor storm may apart our hearts.. (aiks.. like love poem sajer ler..)

haha.. anyway, uhm... jo lin wrote one for me too.. itz posted in her blog, i guess... hehe

oh ya!! i got my salary edi.. seeeeee>>>>


ngek ngek ngek... i am going to get the money out from my bank tomoro!!! hip hip hooray!! can buy new year clothes d.. and can change new spec d!! yay yay yay!!!







*************************************************Lustrously brighten my days and nights